Forgiving/Asking

First Published on Into Heartbreak and Back on May 28, 2014

I forgive you.  I forgive you for losing your cool on that lady in the street that day.  I forgive you for your fear of my betrayal.  I forgive you for trying to control me.  I forgive you for withholding affection.  I forgive you for making me feel stupid and worth nothing.  I forgive you for your your anger.  I forgive you for hurting me.

I still love you.

Please forgive me for not asking the right questions.  For staying silent when I should have spoken up.  Forgive me for professing love but not always showing it.  Forgive me for not knowing enough, doing enough, being enough.

What happens in your nightmares?  What really went on over there and how do you feel about it?  What would you do differently?  What would you change?  What do you miss?  What did you love?  How can I be there for you?  What do you need right now?

Thank you for sharing what you have with me.

Praise God for you in my life.

I Will Be Your Brotherhood

First Published on Into Heartbreak and Back on May 28, 2014

I will give you brotherhood (family).  I will love you.  You can love me.  I will have your back.  I am not perfect but I am trustworthy.  I will do it all for you, as long as it is right and just.

My emotions were sitting in my throat while I watched this.  There are a million reasons to cry and a million reasons not to.  If you only understood in your mind in your heart that I will be your brotherhood…

MISSION 22

I heard this song today and I thought of you. I thought of me and I thought of you. You, who have felt the cold hand of domestic violence. You, who have felt the crippling loss of control through PTSD. I hear you. I see you. I am you. Today, this song is my voice to you, for you.

 

I don’t know when. I don’t know how. But I believe relief and goodness is coming your way. Let it come our way.

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This past weekend I had the privilege to run with Team Red White and Blue in the Run As One 5k in downtown Denver. It was to honor the 22 veterans who commit suicide EVERY DAY. Every day, my friends. That makes the war at home more dangerous than all our combat missions around the world. Let’s end the stigma surrounding PTSD and TBI. Let’s end the silence! Please visit MISSION22.COM and SAVE THE 22!