January 15 2014
Today I give myself permission to have hard moments when I feel like I can’t breathe, like I am chocking, dying. Moments when I crumble, fall apart, breakdown. Moments when I hate myself and want to give up, give in, isolate, scream, cry and beg for release.
I also give myself permission to show myself love by breathing deeply and choosing to rise and reach out. To call upon my war council. To choose faith. To choose to believe that one day a good man will love me, want me and treat me not only the way I deserve to be treated but better than I deserve. A man that will not love me in spite of my struggles and weaknesses but because of them. I give myself permission to believe that I am worthy of such love – BECAUSE I AM.